Move and Be Moved

This past weekend I came face to face with how I still seek perfection in my spiritual practice (not my physical so much anymore). I was reminded that as a Catholic I simply went to church every week and asked for forgiveness...everything was pretty clean cut and simple. In the 5rhythms practice I face myself and my spiritual growth isn't so straight forward. In particular, I am up against the part of me that is a fool. I resist the fool - especially in front of others I don't know - fools get laughed at - why would I want to be laughed at? Even though I enjoy laughing at others?! The fool isn't neat, tidy or perfect - the fool lets it all out for others to see. At the same time, I can see this is exactly what I need to embody my soul....I need all that messy stuff to come out and be laughed at in order to dive deep into my soul. In essence the 5rhythms, as my spiritual practice, tricks, teases and tickles me into my soul. In the end I play the perfect fool...no matter what I do, say, or dance...