living into the dance with uncertainty

Submitted by DuncanDancer on Mon, 2006-07-24 13:33.
I am in the midst of my third stay in Chicago with my friend of nearly thirty years who has terminal cancer. She is holding up amazingly well after some really rough spells over the last year since her diagnosis. I was able to come for a little over a week this time; I've been here three days now.

There are so many challenges and growth opportunities in a situation like this, it's hard to know where to begin to talk about it. One of the most challenging parts for me , living so far away, has been the uncertainty factor- basically it comes down to the question, "When will she die?" It's so ironic, because in a way, there is more certainty about her situation than there is about anyone else I know. It is certain that she will die pretty soon. Anyone else I know including myself could die at any moment- there is no certainty about how long anyone will live.

Perhaps the certainty of Peg's mortality is just the thing that awakens me to the uncertainty inherent in life, and death. I am dancing, I am dancing, I am danced...

Visudha Says:
Mon, 2006-07-24 22:29

Yes, dancing. Living Fully, sharing the Big Love is really all we can do. Thanks for sharing Duncan.

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